MMIX

And here we have it, an end to another year and what a way to end it.

I have been dragged out of my vacation leave and have been working overtime for the past 6 days, including New Year's eve. It's also another working day tomorrow too and possibly for the next few days too.

It simply pisses me off that extra work keeps streaming in just because the big boss wants to show some form of generosity. I may sound heartless but to state a cold hard fact very clearly, dealing with live organisms is never a bed of roses. You cannot expect every venture to have huge rewards without taking the risks into consideration. C'est le vie.

My colleagues and I ended our eve by fooling around in office while we wait for the meeting by our senior management to end.

Looking back, it has been a fairly lousy year with only minor glimmers to be found. The only star light I found promptly disappeared for the rest of the year and in the meantime, a long-anticipated trip next year appears to be in tetters as it seems that I have been played out.

What a way to end and begin a year. Having that little bit of starlight around will probably help...

The writer has been sporting the stone-face look for the last few days now and is likely to look even more glum as the next anticipated wave of shit is about to hit the fan...

It's not complicated

Alright people. I haven't been updating as often as I would like due to some work issues. During that time, there has been some developments in some aspects that somehow leaves me wondering if it was for the better or for worse.

Now for the better part of December (and late November), I've been running around quite a bit in preparation of a Ministerial visit and since the boss is conviniently out of country for that period, it's up to us (mainly myself) left to run the show. Why me? Let's see, my more senior colleague is busy with his family and housing issues, plus he got sent to represent the organisation at an overseas event. Colleagues from the other branch who are involved as well are busy with other things. So mainly it's left to me to attend planning trips with the management and than plan for the actual events.

All went well except for the constant changes to the program and the bad weather hampering our construction and rehearsals but we took it in stride. However, Murphy's Law came into effect when the actual show started. I shall not elaborate but it left us very much disappointed. Add to the frustration was the quarrelsome pair of colleagues that was evident for all to see. Being the senior officer left in office that day, I promptly dragged them into room when we cleared the stuff and sat down for some clear-the-air talks.

All in all this was a thankless job. All the shit goes to us and non of the hardwork behind the scenes will ever be acknowledged. But having told my worrying boss to go enjoy her holiday and leave the rest to us, I held my word. To have kept my integrity was the small bit of light in that dark period.

So after that tiring period, I finally had a breakthrough on my personal front. Having been bashing my head against the brick wall for so long, against all advice and common sense, the brick wall finally broke. Even so, I'm still left with a very bloodied head. Some ask me what compelled me to carry on with a seemingly futile exercise? Why do I persist in my stubborness? I can only give a blank stare, because if it happens, it's well worth the effort. Now that it has happened, I'm at a loss as to what to do!

Funny isn't it? The things I do sometimes defies logic, probably even insane (try jumping off a fully functioning aeroplane up in the air with nought but some strings and a piece of cloth on your back). It points to a very complex and crazy mindset. It's not complicated really, pure and simple. It's just me.

The writer is currently enjoying that small bit of a break for the year end before the madness resumes. New Year resolutions will have to wait.